Ximplicity v2.0

My beloved Malaysia is celebrating her 50th year since independence today. she had come a long way since 1957, i’m sure she’s tired, especially when so much had happened just recently. however, i am very sure that every home grown Malaysian, no matter where they are, they still love her as much as they always do, and on this day, we will all standing upright and proud, singing to the hymm of Negaraku, for today, 31st August, is our National Day.

HAPPY MERDEKA DAY !

may your flag forever flies proud above the clear blue sky like it always does.

i will always love you as much as i love myself

Now Listening: John Mayer - Gravity

Malaysia has been under that system for the past 50 years, i am good with the existing juridical system. Are you not?

excerpt from theStar Online:

PUTRAJAYA: The proposal to use Syariah law to replace English common law in court proceedings should be studied thoroughly first, said Datuk Dr Abdullah Zin.

The Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department said the move, if approved, should be done in stages.

Lauding the proposal by Chief Justice Tun Ahmad Fairuz Sheikh Abdul Halim, he said Syariah law gave importance to justice.

It would also be a further development for Sya
riah law in the country in addition to introducing a uniform syariah law in all states, Dr Abdullah sai d yesterday.

“We are already in the process of getting a uniform syariah law in all 14 states including the Federal Territory relating to family, administration and criminal law.

“If there are more proposals for the development of Syariah law, they are most welcome but it should be done in stages,” he told reporters after opening the seminar on counselling for Muslim terminally ill patients here.

my personal opinion is: UNBELIEVABLE, UNACCEPTABLE, UNREASONABLE..

some short excerpts from Bernama:

Gani had said that Islamic law was the best source as it emphasised justice and equal rights.

what you based on to speak of a sentence like that? goodness, haven’t people nowadays THINK before they speak? have you even compared it with all of the existing justice system? i suspect that is just your personal point of view, isn’t it?

Chief Justice Tun Ahmad Fairuz Sheikh Abdul Halim had also recently suggested that reference to the English common law be abolished as it reflected that the minds of local legal practitioners were still being colonised.

i mean, what kind of monkey would say something like that? not to mention that he is our Chief of Justice. i mean, dude, haven’t you heard of the word “Best Practice”? again, i’m not sure whether the British Common Law would be the best practice, yet, what we should be doing is to look at what is that weakness in the existing system, compared it with others and pull together the best solution. build on top of what we have and excellence it, dude… the law system is not a lego set your monkey son plays at home, you don’t simply demolish and restructure it just because you THINK shallowly.

for goodness sake, brothers, put aside racial issue whereby there are still 45% of non-muslims residing in the beautiful country, the existing juridical system has been around for the past 50 years or so, and it is serving the country good. abolishment or replacement or restructuring of the existing law with a whole new set of laws would be damn fucking unnecessary to me.

Please, i beg you to use your brains and think, my dear leaders, THINK before you act, use your brains. and when you are using your brains, please think for the benefits of Malaysian as a whole. Please differentiate your pesonal religious sentiments from your job as a leader and decision maker.

Now Listening: Rage Against The Machine - Fuck The Police 

To Love, Was Never To Possess

– by myself

what have i done to deserve such a fucking bad month?

it doesn’t matter if i’ve lost a business, but it does matter to me what had happened, it freaks me out that people could just manipulate stories and make it into a weapon, and then stab you with it. whatever you said, whatever you did before could be used as a weapon to put an end to your fucking pathetic life

i guess, what just happened today had worn out all my patience, trust and beliefs that there exist honest, good and trustworthy individuals in my industry, or rather, in the fucked-up, money speaks louder than personality community. it sucks that i have to learnt this through someone whom i have trusted so much, someone whom i’ve never even thought that this could happen, someone whom i treated as a tutor and a mentor.

i think the reason is really simple, when it comes to money and benefits, they weighs way beyond than personality and friendship, and today’s lesson is: Men’s only best friend is money. human being could do just about ANYTHING for money.. therefore, my conclusion is, everything has a price tag on it, even if it’s personality. the only difference is the total amount. what had happened made me realized that the friendship which has just ended today worth only RM150,000.00..

it’s sad, it’s really sad because that contributes 80% of my next year’s salary, and now i need to work triple hard to remunerate whatever that had lost. however, what hurt me most wasn’t the number, but the things that people could do for money. damn it…

tomorrow will be a better day.. what happened today, FUCK IT LAH !
hooooooooo-saaaaaaaaaaaah~~~~

p/s: to the person who did this, i curse you a bad weekend for what you’ve done. you will be burned in hell, trust me, you will be.. oh, and before that even happen, i sincerely wish that you’ll be gang-raped by 10 banglahs.

Now Listening: Nick Lachey - What’s Left of Me

somehow, there’s this weird emotion would just strike without you knowing, stir our lives and make it totally gone out of control once in a while..

all this while, your life was fine all along, then out of nowhere, suddenly a weird emotion would just kick in, caught you totally unprepared, and the next second, all hell let loose, yet somehow, it would come right in between sweetness and bitterness, it is all sweet because because it’s like you have found a bright light in your darkest sky, it tastes all bitterness because it throws you into a bottomless abyss, leaving you helpless, not knowing what to do next and leaving you totally idea-less how to even do it.

and that weird thing is called feeling…

you would keep thinking about just something and anything…

you would start to get damn blady emotionally attached…

your emotion would get all fucked up even it was just little things that the other person has done to you, intentionally and unintentionally..

your imaginations and fantasies would start to go all wild and jumping around..

you start to become all energized in things you do, yet sometimes you would just laze around and do nothing just to think about the person who stir up your feelings..

it’s weird, it’s really weird because just when you feel that you have some control over certain things, and yet it didn’t turn out right at all

i know exactly how it felt because just realized that my life has gone pretty out of control recently… and worse, it could become a whole fucking mess… because of all the uncertainties.

damn it..

Now Listening: Gabrielle - Sunshine | Gabrielle - Over You

Let’s talk about sex, shall we? i guess it’s a topic which everyone would be so excited about. another reason is because there are too friggin’ many queries of what’s the past of the girl about in the previous post and there are way too many wild guesses

anyway, yes, it is about a girl who’d once gave her body to people whom she didn’t even know. now, she’s merely a simple girl you’d met anywhere whom you never thought she’d such a past. and no, she wasn’t selling it, so she wasn’t a prostitute. and no again, i’m not giving you her mobile number, so stop trying.

i’m not telling you the whole story about the girl here, all i wanted to say in this entry is that: DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT SAYING GIRLS who had or have multiple sex partners a horny bitch, especially guys. i’m so fucking sick of that, simply because if you can fuck around or pay for sex, you’re in no position to say even a word like that. so, please kill yourself now by banging your head against the wall as hard as you can by calling that girl a horny bitch, you motherfuckers.

To me personally, sexual need is what nature has given to us, just like how we need air, water and food. to a large group of people, it might not be accepted and could be rebutting by now, but please, i SAID: “TO ME PERSONALLY”, didn’t i? however, when i said it’s natural, i neither agree nor against sleeping around having multiple sexual partners concurrently. well, because i interprete it as it is simply a choice of preference of difference individuals. and to me, as long as you don’t induce pain, grief, hurt and hatred during and after the process, i’m totally fine with it.

there must be a lot of people labeling me as a very cincai person at this point of time, that’s ok, however, please allow me to finish my entry. like i said, since it’s a natural need, why would we control, or even depress our need? it’s not like you’re killing people for it, and it’s not like you’re prevaricating around for it? however, if you did, you suck.

well, i guess the deciding difference between us and the monkeys is that we could use our brain to think, analyze and decide what’s right, what’s wrong, what’s moral, what’s immoral and most importantly, the worthiness and the consequences, i mean, we’re all adults, and we adults should be able to do that in a proper way, aren’t we?

There’s this weird phenomenon that men can boast how many women they’ve slept with before, and the rest of the guys would look up to him, however if it’s a girl, she would be labeled a horny desperate bitch who fucks around, somehow, i think it’s a little unfair here. unfortunately, we’re in the east, and the oriental mindset says that men who fuck around are Casanova and women who fuck around are dirty horny bitches yo, c’est la vie. we have no choice but live up to that, since we’re all the descendants of the east.

my all time personal reminder is: “you can do everything and anything as long as you know where your limit is”. so, as long as you think that it wouldn’t do any harm to anyone, it’s totally okay, at least with me… don’t you need to care what other says about you.

Now Listening: Radiohead - Creep

Everyone has a past, that’s what i believe.

that might be a part of us which we wished no one would ever discover, a part of us which we wished it will be kept secret the the day we bring it to our graves with us, a part of us which has only tears, grieves, denials and rejections. i heard of stories like that every once in a while, i could still remember the first time when i was told of a story like that, i was so emotional i thought i was him and i broke down totally and it took me really quite a while to recover and pulled myself out of the story. i thought, it wasn’t easy at all even i was a listener, how would it be if i was him, i guess, i would have already ended my pathetic life then, no shit… i mean, he earned my total respect for his courage to go through what had happened and what has been haunting him all the while.

it has been quite a while i didn’t hear stories like that since the last one.

just recently, about a month and a half ago, i was told a similar story by a young lady who’s in her mid 20. this time, it is a story about a girl who had a past which she wished it never happened, a past which she thought it brought shame, disgust and indecency into her life as well as her family. that past had wounded her body, her life, worse, it wounded her soul. though it is over now, that part of her had left a very bad scar. the scar was so bad whenever she looked at her past, even though it’s just a peek, she could still feel the pain, the pain that once torn her apart. it was a past which clearly not for the faint hearted, and it was a past which will be spat at if the listener’s mindset is still at a that time no less than a decade ago. afterall, in order to be able to accept stories like these, you can’t be too conservative. otherwise, it will rock your view on the very fundamental life value. it would even change the way you view the story teller totally.

anyway, i guess it’s because throughout the years i’ve heard of stories like that, or perhaps i have really grown up, it wasn’t too shocked that i didn’t react emotionally this time, ironically, i didn’t even have much feeling towards it this time. i’m very certain that it’s not because my blood has turned cold, i guess it’s simply because i believe if you could tell a story as such calmly to a listener whom you don’t really even understand much, chances would be you’d already let it go. and it would be of shit use if i react like it just happened yesterday and gotten all emo about it.

Everyone has the very darkest secret kept in the bottom of their heart, only known to themselves.

so, never ever dig others’ secret, no matter how tempted you are, because once you’ve dug it out, he/she might no longer become someone you’ve known for years, and simply because you just couldn’t believe why would that ever even happened. worse, it could be something you don’t even want to know at all, even if it’s laid out on a table for you to see.

Now Listening: Six Pence Non The Richer - Don’t Dream It’s Over

I just realized i’ve been keeping this very bad habit of mine for almost 8 years now…

i guess both of my lungs should be charcoal black by now..

i tried to quit not once, not twice but thrice.. but well, it’s very obvious that i didn’t have enough determination to suceed, i guess it’s the self discipline issue again. All this while, i’ve been struggling with very serious self discipline issue.

Puffs puffs puffs, when can i call it a stop while i’m puffing away even at this moment writing this entry??

damn..

Now Listening: Radiohead - Sail To The Moon 

Seriously, this has gotta be 1 of the best show i’ve watched in 2007.

As i said before, i love shows with a twist, and this show certainly has a good twist. to me, every good show is like having an orgasm, and at the end of this show, i was like i just had damn friggin’ good multi-orgasm.

Synopsis from IMDB:

On his birthday, Walter Sparrow, an amiable dog-catcher, takes a call that leaves him dog bit and late to pick up his wife. She’s browsed in a bookstore, finding a blood-red-covered novel, a murder mystery with numerology that loops constantly around the number 23. The story captivates Walter: he dreams it, he notices aspects of his life that can be rendered by “23,” he searches for the author, he stays in the hotel (in room 23) where events in the novel took place, and he begins to believe it was no novel. His wife and son try to help him, sometimes in sympathy, sometimes to protect him. Slowly, with danger to himself and to his family, he closes in on the truth.

Personally, i think Jim Carey wasn’t his usual self, i mean, he has always been the ultra-super-friggin’ funny clown in most of his show. when it comes to shows like this, at first, i didn’t expect much from him.. however, at the end of the show, i think he did carry the role pretty damn well, and his facial expression has been completely dragged me into the show as well, it was that ultra-exaggerating facial expression that has brought the character to life.

watch the show, and expect a pretty unexpected ending …

As soon as Ximplicity.net took its first step into the known world, it has received pretty interesting comments, and links, such as the one i just received today. thanks, i guess you’re Ximplicity’s first reader, i sincerely hope that you will continue to share your opinions with me in times to come. now, let me share with you and the rest what i think about blogging.

Blog is a free-form media, basically, it is a personal-owned dictative space/medium where no real rules could bind or no exact guidelines on how it should be written. it is solely based on the owner’s preference. put it this way, it’s like a person’s mouth, he/she can say whatever he/she wish or desire, you can’t really control, can you?

Back in the good ol’ times where Blog was still called Weblog, it was actually the best form of media for independent writers, journalists, reviewers, etc. reading those columns was as good as reading a book, i was still a school kid then, and i was actually inspired to write then. However, as time past, and with the general popularization of Internet usage as well as tools like this, this medium where it was once a green spot for information sharing is so badly raped that it has almost lost its core value, at least to the general public. i remember about 7 years ago when i started blogging, i was once someone you hated, i rant, i cursed, i bragged, i complained, i flamed.. and so i think that was the reason why i stopped 2 years later. because i realized that it is meaningless, my blog was just an empty barrel which doesn’t really contribute to the overall blogging community.

after 4 years i stopped, i decided to give my old blog a re-birth, hoping that i can do it right this time. however, like i said, it’s still a personal space, i still rant about my personal life, and you can still read craps on and off, but i promised myself i’ll keep those to minimal. In general, i guess human beings are still the self-centric-ego-chauvinistic-bastards who love themselves more than anything else. and i guess that’s the reason why you don’t find too many Ghandi or Buddha around. Very seldom we actually put ourselves in others’ shoes simply because we don’t think there’s a need to since “we” are the most important person in the world, afterall, there’s only one “ME” in the world, a rare species ! hence we start blaming why hasn’t the world been treating us fairly, and sometimes we even blame the sun for being too hot.

Well, to end this post, I think you are right, many things in this world has not only both sides, but multiple facets, so we really shouldn’t narrow ourselves on looking only at 1. sometimes, move yourself around or tweak the things a little bit and you might have surprising discoveries. however, to do that, you must have a calm mind because a calm mind has a much clearer view. try to imagine you’re at a beautiful lake, only when the water in the lake is calm, then you can see the reflection of a beautiful landscape together with the real scene. waves in the water will only twist your view.

there are reasons why i categorized blogs that i read like what i said in my introductory page. read the blogs for entertainment or for fun, don’t expect much from them, unless when you come by real informative blogs. i guess, to the bloggers, it’s very hard to please everyone too.

Now Listening: Ryan Cabrera - True