Archive for July, 2007I Love Malaysia, I Love my country… really, i’m sincere when i’m typing this. i think sometimes we just have to put aside the racial privileges, unfair education quota, corruption and political issue but just sit back, relax and take a look at the things we have now. we have a multi-racial, multi-cultural and harmony community, we learnt to respect each other’s culture, people from different races living peacefully in the same neighborhood, astonished foreigners when they learnt of our multi-language ability, uncontaminated beaches and islands, tallest towers we are proud of, etc. really, no matter how unfair the policies are. i still love Malaysia, why? simply because i am born a Malaysian and there is no reason for me not to love this place, catastrophic natural disaster free, femine free, stable economical growth, steady climate, my families, my friends from all races, my home. and most importantly, my folks had taught me since young that:
based on fact number 2, don’t look too far away, just look at our neighbor Indonesia, total prohibition of anything related to Chinese. the unfair education quota is merely a mosquito bite. half a globe away, even tourists who visit some of the middle east countries are required to wear tudungs, what is the big-a-deal with privileges are given to the bumi(s)? look at the unstoppable civil war in some of the middle-east countries between dominating religions, now what is your fucking problem with the civil servant’s bad service quality? don’t laugh, i am so fucking serious about this. and no, don’t you even think about it that i’m a sadist who has forgotten that i’m a Chinese, of course i haven’t, in fact, i respect my root as a Chinese, i respect my Chinese culture, i respect my Chinese blood, i respect my Chinese ancestors, but i respect even more that i am a MALAYSIA BORN CHINESE. SAYA BANGGA SEBAGAI ANAK MALAYSIA
though i think my small blog won’t do much impact as a whole, my last note is: to whom it may concerned, Malaysia is a PEACEFUL NATION and Malaysians are PEACEFUL PEOPLE. you can play whatever fucking game is that you enjoy playing, we general civilians don’t really give a fuck because we love each other very much. so please stop stirring the people’s feelings when we are obviously not stirring our own, and then you point your dirty little finger at us saying that we are the culprits. PLEASE STOP FUCKING MY BELOVED MALAYSIA just read the latest post on Malaysia Today… i foresee a storm between the socio-political blogging community and the higher authority, in which the storm will drench the rest of the general blogger community. damn… a thunderstorm is coming, and people, prepare your umbrella.. seriously, what’s with the killing happening so frequent lately? first it was the Atantuya case, then it was the saddening little YingYing’s case, then it was today’s headline regarding a new tenant of a lelong condo found the body of a murdered man cut into 11 pieces being dumped into a refrigerator. goodness sake… another killing on the headline, what the fuck is wrong with the people these days? i mean, as if it is not messy enough ! duhr ! what is wrong with the society? goodness, this is just so wrong, what is in the hatred so strong that you have to perish the person? what is it that blinds you when you clearly know that you will face a death toll when you are charged with first degree murder? seriously, i don’t have much to say as the headlines recently are aching me, really… what is with the killings around? recently, it’s been really juicy stuffs that are going around in related to Blogosphere and the local politicians. first it was Dear Mr. Nathaneil, then it was Dear Mr. RPK, then in between it was Mr. Muar-Rapper.. this post is specifically dedicated to Mr. Muar-Rapper because i think he is deserved to be on my blog. personally, i think he’s music is okay, he is not trying to hard, he is not too wannabe to me, at least, this dude has got his own style. though the music he did wasn’t professionally done, i think it’s pretty good. as compared to point-blanc, Mr. Muar-Rapper isn’t as commercial. my view is: point-blanc is out to make money, and Mr. Muar-Rapper makes raps. i like Point-Blanc because his music is made professionally and it is commercially nice. i like Mr. MR because his music is so primitive, yet so captivating. in his content, it has what i believe to be the hip hop elements in it, anger, sarcasm, social facts, authority challenging. personally, i quite like what his content. it brought up the local issues on a light note, and in a very sarcastic tone, most importantly, it made me nod and laugh at the same time. not to mentioned the composing and the music arrangement, i believe he used the simplest form of digital music: MIDI. but the result is great. it is the latest music video he made below brought him a series of unfortunate events. first it was the criticism and bashing from the local political scene, then it is the fact that he might face jail terms now. frankly speaking, if i ever have the chance, i would ask the highest authority: What is the fucking big-a-deal here? so you don’t like the facts were spread out on the table in a sarcastic way? you don’t like that he re-arranged the national anthem ? you don’t actually like the part that he criticized the dominating tribe? or is it that you simply don’t like his face? come on, people, why can’t you just take it easy? it is just a piece of music made by some amateur musician. what the fuck is wrong? the only wrong thing he did might be just re-arranging the national anthem. that’s all. i personally think it wasn’t reciting any social or racial unrest, as the clever and smart Malaysian can actually differentiate which is which. now you’re mentioning this, what are you doing on YouTube !? don’t you have more important things on hand to deal with? or you need things like this to distract peaceful Malaysian from something else? Well.. whatever it is.. you go dude.. i will sign you when you’re out of jail. now peeps, enjoy the MV, by Mr. Muar-Rapper, NameWee This post is not to announce i’m gay, ok? i’m 100% straight guy, i love every single bit of a woman.. i’ve never fantasized about having a relationship with anyone from the same sexual group. the point of this post is: fuck you peeps out there who are anti-homosexual.. fuck you ! why? seriously, it’s because yours truly is fucking sick of hearing any of the followings:
scuse-me, you are the bloody fucker who’s damn fucking SICK, ok? now what is so damn wrong for being homosexual? don’t give me crap like how to have sex, how to get intimate, how to get aroused by people from the same sexual group, how to have future generations, it’s against the religion, it’s against the law, blah blah blah. bottom line, that’s not all in a relationship, that’s why i DON’T BUY any of your fucking lame reason. they are just a normal human being, whether he is gay or lesbian, the only difference between them and us straights is the sexual preference.. the procedure, the process and the reason they fell in love with people from the same sexual group is exactly the same to us. it was never disgusting, it is a relationship like any other straight relationship which should be blessed You are the disgusting motherfucker here because you despised them, moreover, you are not in any fucking position to judge at all. whether they are the masculine or feminine one doesn’t really matter to you, stop deciding for them, they are just them, they have their own way to differentiate, or maybe they don’t even differentiate, who know? so what if he play butt-hole or play nose-hole? it is not in your world to imagine how they have sex because you will never understand, so stop imagining if you don’t like it, noone is forcing you to keep imagining unless you would like to try… oh, and stop being a self-centered, ego, high self-esteem individual by thinking that they will fall in love with you cause you are not that good looking anyway, so stop the unnecessary worries. And finally, PLEASE, find your brain, put it back into your head and go back to school, AIDS does not transmit via touches. seriously, i think i’m no longer in the clubbing league anymore.. simply because i just came back from Velvet Underground for a friend’s birthday and i’m currently feeling like shit.. i drank only a few glasses and i’m feeling pretty drunk now… i moved and danced a little bit and i’m feeling all exhausted right now…. i puffed only a few sticks just now and i’m feeling unbelievably sick of the smell of my breathe… i wasn’t using my brain at all just now but i’m having a brain malfunctioning problem now… to be honest, i start to hate the scent of liquor, i start to feel sick of a stuffy room full of badly dressed monsters and that high decibel bass.. where had the party animal in me gone to? i used to party like 3 days a week, but hey, look at me right now, this is seriously SO NOT ME… perhaps, it is the age issue, i think it’s catching up fast on me… An article which i’ve always remind myself of how to cherish and to love someone maturely, i would love to share it with everyone out there, wish you a happily ever after ending.. 有位心理學家曾寫道，一個成熟稱得上真愛的戀情必須經過四個階段，那就是：
階段之間轉換所需的時間不一定，因人而易。 第一個階段：共存 這是熱戀時期，情人不論何時何地總希望能膩在一起。
等到情感穩定後，至少會有一方想要有多一點自己的時間作自己想做的事,這時另一方就會感到被冷落。
這是第二個階段的延續，要求更多獨立自主的時間。
妳和他本來沒有相同之處，外表不相像，性格也是南轅北轍，一旦愛上了，年深日久，妳會驚訝妳的眼睛有點像他的眼睛，他的微笑也有點像妳的微笑。你們走路的步伐也有點相似，說話的語氣也愈來愈相像。他的脖子上有一顆痣，一天，妳發現自己脖子上也多了一顆痣，原來我們會變成我們所愛的人。妳本來喜歡腳踏實地的人，而他一向比較輕佻，但你們愛上了，他竟會不知不覺變成一個老實人，這個改變，連他自己也不曾察覺。他本來喜歡活潑的女孩子，卻愛上了拘謹的妳，這些日子，妳竟愈來愈活潑，妳差點認不出自己。 我們會逐漸變成對方理想中的人，這種改變，絕對不是刻意的。兩個人愈愛得長久，氣質也愈來愈相近，妳曾經以為他不是妳夢寐以求的那種類型，然而，有一天，妳驚訝地發現，他已經變成妳喜歡的那種類型，妳不必再到處尋覓，他就是妳要找的人。 深深愛著一個人的時候，妳原來真的會一點一點的失去自己，為甚麼妳還會覺得快樂呢？大概是因為妳在失去的當兒，也是賺了，妳把他的氣質和他的微笑都賺回來。 The following article is inspired by a real life account and it’s expressed by a guy from a girl’s point of view Both of you were high school sweethearts, or perhaps you get to know each other during university.. you were young and have beautifully painted pictures about how love should be.. both of you were so madly in love that you’ve decided that he/she is going to be the last person you’ll be with for the rest of your life.. at least that was what you thought then.. you’re 25 this year, you suddenly realized that age is catching up fast on you. you’re still with the same person you’re with for the past few years. you’ve been receiving wedding invitations on a pretty frequent basis.. everybody around you, no matter they’re friends, relatives or even new friends whom you just knew, they were asking the same question: “oh! such a lovely couple, when are you guys gonna get married?” it’s a question you hated very much, you’ve just gone through the quarter-life crisis, you’ve just set a new goal and direction for your life.. you just don’t think it’s the right time to settle down yet.. you’re wide awake all night long and stare at the person sleeping beside you, a question suddenly popped into your mind… is he really going to be the person i’m gonna commit the rest of my life? no doubt, you know for sure he loves you as much as you love him. but you’ve just learned a great lesson from your long struggled quarter-life crisis, you learned to start asking yourself all sorts of questions, questions not only about the love and passion you two shared, but the fundamental of relationship. you start to ask yourself whether he is the kind of man with a great sense of responsibility, whether he is dedicated and committed to make sure you don’t suffer from grief and lies. he might not be the prince of your dream, but he is someone whom you can rely, depend on and look upon. because you don’t want to take care of a grown-up kid for the rest of your life. of course, unless you enjoy being a care-giver to the extent that you love to treat your life-partner as a kid. but you certainly don’t want a father who mess around as much as your kids, a father who doesn’t even know how to tie his own shoelace, let alone teaching his kids how to do it. maybe he snores so loud that it affects your sleep, maybe he forget the wedding anniversary every year.. but you know he never forget you’re allergic to egg, he never forget to remind the kids of their exam, and most importantly, he remember all the things he promised you and the kids.. you also start asking yourself whether he is financially okay to support that kind of family lifestyle you two had been discussing. at this point of time, you’re very clear that financial stable doesn’t mean the wedding of the century, but the promises after the ring exchange. you’re not thinking for yourself anymore, because in your mind, you were thinking about supporting a family and couple of kids. because you know that marriage doesn’t evolve around the two of you, but a peaceful family and the next generation. you don’t want to worry whether your kids have no text book the next semester. and you certainly don’t want to worry about how to cover next month’s family expenses. love is no doubt a great factor to hold two person together. and hence choices need to be made… i think the original version of this was during the ahk3n.net time… You’re a fresh graduate, you got into a company, you are highly motivated, you are eager to learn, you can’t stop asking this and that, you have high expectations for yourself, you want ot make your parents proud, you want your peers to envy what you’re capable of.. you want to achieve something, something big, something you’re proud of.. fast forward, you’re celebrating your 24 or 25 birthday this year, friends sang you your birthday song, with a nice tiramisu cake, then you hit the hot club in town, party all night long.. the moment you got home and when the noises died down, you suddenly felt that time flies, so fast it seems the day you’re in your convocation gown was only yesterday.. A good rest is what you need right now after the exhausting party, but your mind couldn’t, you realized that you’re now 25, you’re still in the same company where you landed your first job, maybe you’ve hopped to a new company, but not much increment has been given, and worse, you can hardly cope with the car loan, rental, basic expenses, or even the cheque for the folks back home every month. you suddenly realize that most of the goals you’ve set 2 years back is yet to materialized, you have no idea what you’ve been doing, but you’re sure that great efforts were put in to achieve them. suddenly, you’re not sure whether you still want to stay in the same company which doesn’t seem like it’ll bring you anywhere soon.. you wanted to move on, maybe start something on your own, or move to a new environment, maybe even go abroad, but you’re unsure whether that’s the right choice to make, because you’re thinking that if you’ve made a wrong move, it’ll be helluva situation because it will take you another 2 or 3 years to realize the impact and you’ll be 28 or 29 then.. it seems like there’s no room for mistake, yet it doesn’t seem like there’s anywhere to move to as well.. don’t worry, those of us who’ve been through it understand exactly how you feel now, and we call it The Quarter-Life Crisis, a stage in life where you are unsure of whether what you’re doing right now will be taking you anywhere, a stage in life where you have difficult decisions to make, and you feel that any step you take will affect the rest of your life. and in relationship, especially if you’re a lady, it’s a stage in life where you’ll seriously think about whether the partner you’ve been holding on to is exactly the one who will be the one who walks the path of life with you, whether he’ll not only love you with all his heart, but also support you, and most importantly, the family you 2 will build. i’ll talk about The Quarter-Life Crisis of relationship the next time. right now, let’’s focus on your career and your own life solution is: sit down, don’t be too hard on yourself, be clear of what you really want, plan an achievable target for the next 2 years, plan a path for yourself and realize what do you need to do within these 2 years in order for you to reach your destination in the time line, set milestones, then set review benchmarks, come up with some contingency plans to back yourself up if any of the you can’t meet the review benchmarks on time cause you can’t keep delaying your milestone, else it defeats the purpose. once you’re done, plan for a longer time, 5 years, maybe even 8, follow the same steps you’ve done for your 2 years plan. along the way, tweak accordingly to fit the current situation. but alwayss remember, be CLEAR of WHAT YOU WANT and DO NOT change the goal, tweak it instead if you think it’s unachievable, because if you keep changing your goals, you’ll end up the same situation you’re currently at. we’ve survived, so will you.. |
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